I'm not a very good research subject.
I'm in the last few days of the "wash out" stage, where I go off all my previous meds to I can start clean for the HALT PKD study. The assignment is simple--take my new meds every day, and take my blood pressure every other day.
Apparently, that's just too much for me to handle.
Yeah, over the holidays, I had a hard time keeping up with the blood pressure readings. I did the best I could, and never skipped more than 2 days in taking a reading. Does this mean I get kicked out of the study? I hope not, but in a few days, I will be returning to Boston with a sheepish face and an incomplete log. Do you think they will still give me free food?
I'm actually a little nervous about this next appointment. It's a biggie, with the MRI looming large. I've had two previous MRIs, and I don't like them. I do okay, and I keep myself calm, but I come up with all kinds of scenarios that creep into my mind as I'm lying motionless, unable to move or help myself in any way. One time I imagined that there was a terrorist attack on the hospital, my technician got hit on the head, and I was stuck in the machine, alone, and died of thirst because nobody knew I was there. Since an MRI machine's walls are like a mile thick, nobody would hear my screams.
Yes, I know. I'm totally morbid. When I tell my husband about this kind of stuff, he's constantly amazed at my totally freaky imagination and tells me I should write a murder mystery or something. You know, so I could get paid for freaking myself out.
Anyway, I'll keep you posted on the appointment. And if anybody has tips on getting through an MRI that don't involve imagining a terrorist attack, I'd love to hear them.